Lost

Have you ever been lost ,,,

between : what you want, what you need, and what you have ?

That's the case for me,

I want something, I had something ( or at least I thought I had ) and I need something else

You always want the shiny, beautiful something

But reality gives you something that is better, but not necessarily as shiny as what you want

Here comes logic...

What are you supposed to choose ?

What If you can not choose ?

Again, that's the situation here

Not being able to choose !

It is useless now since things have collapsed

It seems that,, things were not meant to happen the way we thought

It is easy to blame it on him, you know !

I was not able to accept the whole thing,,

commitment, relationship, the idea that you think this is not what you are meant to do !

But I could easily blame it on him ! ( J )

I could not understand the whole situation, and he could not convince me,,

Well, he tried more than enough, but I was not sensitive enough to capture his emotions

Am I regretting it now ?

Am I sorry for what things end up to ?

I still do not know !

And I still do not know what does he want

Or what is he aiming to

Hopefully things will eventually come to an end

A real end, other than that fake one we had a month ago !